My Life On Dialysis

God is so much greater than dialysis, yes dialysis is apparently keeping me alive, but if I were to die I would be with the Lord in Glory.

so to live allthough more difficult, is just an adventure.

throughout the sickness and the treatment, one thing has become apparent, "When we are faithless He remains faithfull for He cannot reject Himself".

Sometimes I have felt like a dead dog, and questioned "why would anyone love such a useless man ?" but despite me God has shown His faithfulness, debts and bills have come and gone , needs have been met by His love. He is love and His mercies fail not.

And there has been nothing left in me with which to serve Him, nothing I had left to make Him proud, nothing in me left to value, I guess my ego has been dying day by day, my sense of worth has died, and yet In God I have discovered my true sense of worth, He loves me, as I have been made to carry the cross I have discovered the Love that surpasses me, faithfull as He is.

its awsome to know that while we were yet sinners Christ loved us enough to die in our place. and by that same love we are forever saved, forever excepted in the beloved.

Feel free to ask me questions or chat or disagree or anything else apropriate.....

tommorow evening I have another 4 hour dialysis slot, one day I will have no more dialysis, for He will confirm His word in me.

"He who promised is faithful who also will do it."