My Life On Dialysis

One of the more iritating side effects to dialysis or maybe one of the medications is lack of sleep.

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Ive spent the whole day reading and studying very heady stuff, and you'd think at bed time I might be tired, but no. not an ounce of sleepy to be found. stupid sleepy why is it so good at hiding.

4 friends on blog.co.uk. yey about time. come on people read my ramblings and leave a comment chear me up. who knows why it chears me up to have little names of people I dont know who are called friends, but it does so take five minutes to say something nice.  and read some of it, I was assured by someone it wasn't boring.......

my wife is great, I am married to the most wonderfull woman in the world, no offence all the other women of the world, but its my opinion and I am sticking to it. When I got sick my wife was a pillar, sometimes a crying pillar, sometimes a miserable hopeless pillar nevertheless. I actually gave her permission to leave me, I love her to much to expect her to stay with me if I am not and cannot be a fully functioning husband. But she didnt and now she smiles again which is awsome.

03:50 and I am still rambling, tonight I keep running into yucky stuff on the internet, weird that you are googling along and then all of a sudden face to face with yucky stuff. well enough rambling I guess I should say something deep and meaningfull just in case anyone reads this.

The wages of sin is death, But Gods gift to you is eternal life through Jesus Christ, you just have to reach out take the gift like a little child and open it up. 

what is faith, well its that simple, the little child sees the gift being offered and trusts that if she reaches out to take it it will not be snatched away, she trusts that the giver of the gift is good.

Im not religious in fact, I hate religion just as Jesus did, But I have to tell you Jesus is the greatest friend I have ever made, Hes the most beautifull person I have ever met, He a friend that is closer than a brother, who would stand up for me in any fight. If I could do one thing In my life that could benifit you as an individual, I would like it to be that I destroy the negative image many of you have of God, and kill that sick religious image of Jesus that has been portrayed by those who dont know Him.

What do you think when I say traffic wardens, maybe you think oh no not another parking fine.

well when I mention Jesus many of you have a preconcieved Idea, oh no not another religious nut, oh no not one of those church folks.

but I wish I could destroy that preconcieved idea and show you true Jesus.

everyone has their own atmosphear that surrounds them, some people you dont want to hang around, some people project intimidation as they walk around, some people seem bitter. you can feel these emotions of the people you see every day. well when I met Jesus, when He comes into the room I feel His peace, His presence is peace, and re-assurance, and encouragement, and compassion, its mercy, and kindness, tenderness and forgiveness, Its justice

ask Him to visit turn off the tv close your eyes breath out and wait. 

Behold I stand at the door if anyone opens to me I will come in and dine with Him and He with me. Dinner with Jesus, they dont teach that in the churches often enough.

anyway theirs my deep and meaning full.

go on throw questions at me, but not untill you wait for Him.